Monday, January 14, 2008

The Long and Winding Road

Putting Tookie's picture up was not easy for several reasons. That picture was in our desktop computer as my user icon. My daughter had put in for me about a year and a half ago when our scanner was still working. It's not working anymore, not sure why. I tried to get the picture to use because I figured it was in my pictures folder. It wasn't. It wasn't in shared documents either. I have a lot of pictures of her, 20 years worth, but I couldn't scan any. (Vicious circle that life can be) Well the picture for some reason was in daughter's files and she has her stuff password protected. I asked her to please find it, e-mail it to me, then I would have it in my laptop. She asked why. I told her for my blog. She thinks my blog is depressing. She's right.
As I put it in, first on the side bar and then in the post I started crying. I kept it quiet, sniffled a lot and got a sinus headache. Seeing her spirit leave her body, getting her ashes and pawprint in the mail; that you think would be enough to tell someone it's final, over. Well making a memorial, that's when it hit me again.
I don't have a lot to blog about as far as my daily life goes. I don't lead an interesting life. I write when creativity nudges me, I read a lot, I do some crafting. But, mostly I'm home not feeling well. Every single joint in my body usually hurts on some level. Joints I didn't even know I have. I get fevers, cartilage and soft tissue pain. All of it conspires to leave me tired, cranky and boring.
I have some days that are better than others. Sometimes I can make it out for trips to the book store,or dinner and shopping. Not exciting, but at least it's doing something. I look forward to visiting other blogs and "visiting" with very kind interesting people and their beloved pets. I love the time I spend with my three kitties. They aren't velcro cats like Tookie was, but they give and accept love in their own sweet way and I'm so glad they are with me. =^..^=
I'm not sure when I'll feel better again. I just try to take each day as it comes. Thanks to the nice people who comment here. I appreciate it so very much. I will try not to be so down, but again Miss excitement I'm not. I'm still hoping for a digital camera. I want to share more pictures of Billie, Cody, and Cricket monster.
When we get a new scanner, I will post more pictures of Tookie. She loved the camera and posed like a model whenever I took a picture. Like Daisy without the fashions. Well, that's it for now. I will post again when I think of something interesting.


Daisy said...

My Mommie remembers when one of her Cats-Who-Came-Before had to go to the Rainbow Bridge. She was a little Siamese named Haiku. This was over 20 years ago, and she still has a little ache in her heart when she thinks of Haiku.

JB's Big World said...

Tookie was a beautiful kitty. We lost my sister, Taffy, last year too. We are all still very sad. My mom has to scan pictures of Taffy too, in order to post them, because she just got a digital camera only after Taffy went to the Rainbow Bridge.
I saw you at Daisy's and just wanted to say hello.

Please visit my 2 worlds sometime:

Nice to meet you!

Sunrunner said...

Hi I'm back!!! I can sympathize on not feeling well. I've been sick ever since I had influenza at Thanksgiving. We lost our kitty Trouble last January. In fact I think it was a year ago this week, or pretty close. She was only 14. We still miss her. I know she visited me once after she went to the Rainbow Bridge, about a week and a half after she left us.

I hope you had a good Christmas, and have a blessed New Year!

Nancy Lindquist-Liedel said...

Sweetie, I've been trying to come up with the right words for you, and I just can't. I am just so sorry.